Frustration and Thanks

A few days ago I was in surgery getting my appendix taken out. I have been having a slow recovery and have been home for most of it. I was at school on monday but as of tuesday to know i have been home resulting in me missing a lot of school and homework. As well as finals preparation. I will not be returning back to school till monday morning but i am really down. I will in no way be ready for finals and get all my work done. I am already behind and am just getting farther behind. I am frustrated. college has turned out to be another bad experience this year. While i am super frustrated and down and hating this, I am thankful that i got the surgery to get better.


I am lonely and hope things start to look up. Home is nice but all of my friends are at school and I am here at home where i cannot drive anywhere. grrr...


Things will get better.

When the winds knocks me down, God is there to pick me up!

I am on my knees laying down my life to the Lord who has always been there for me. I have reached one of my lowest points in life but it is also the most humbling and learning time of my life. While I may be constantly sick, dealing with depression and anxiety, and not doing well in school academically and jobwise…I have found that there is so much love and support here for me. I am blessed to be here at IWU with such a good group of friends and support.

There have been times where all I wanted to do was just give up but thanks to counseling and the support of people I have not given up. I have learned a bit lesson this past semester. I should not overwork myself. That is what I have done. I have not been taking care of myself and putting others way before myself. While it is good to do that, I also need to make sure that I take care of myself so that I can effectively help others and stay healthy. It only took having severe panic attacks and constantly being sick to let that be known to me. Now I know to take care of myself and start fresh next semester. I am going to start taking care of myself and leaning on the faith of the Lord. He has gotten me this far and will be with me in the future to come.

I just need to keep the faith and trudge on through this hard time. I will get through this and succeed! With him I can do anything. I just need to keep remembering that.

In him,

Malea